Wed, 14 Jun 2006 07:42:33 GMT

Alternative lifestyles often refer to people who are gay, or are gothic, or are vampires, or are ravers, or are some sort of crappy denomination of simple straight forward humanity.

I've realized today that "alternative lifestyles" can also be categories for those like me. People who live without living.

I've created a sort of alternative lifestyle within the way I live my entire life.

There's no real sincerity behind anything I say. I have no actual friends nor foes. I don't have any sort of genuine emotion. The wants, desires, goals, aspirations of life are merely the insubstantial, and more or less the insignificant points to living a life por moi. The absence of such essential ingredients to a basic human life are replaced by the occupation of completely manipulating the lifeforce of the world around me.

Deeply buried within the walls of my inner most thoughts is basically a controller. A very stripped down and basic version of myself sits behind that controller and very unemotionally controls my outer most thoughts, feelings, and actions. There's a three dimensional version of myself that is placed within this reality to interact with everything and everyone in it.

The physical version has been trained to believe that he is real. That everything he says, does, and feels is based of his own genuine attachment to his 3d environment. His defiance to accept that there's a less involved, detached inner being is what keeps him as the crucial "pawn" to what that inner being has planned for himself.

To feel genuine is the only way his actions can be believable. Believable actions, thoughts, emotions, etc. are all the key for the inner "player" to win.

I would describe this alternative mode of living something along the lines of "gameology."

Life is pretty much a game to those like me. We've implemented many aspects of virtual reality into actual reality. Our objective is to create a replica of an actual life, and write this amazing cinematic storyline by manipulating the characters that have been introduced to our story. It is all for our own amusement, for our education to better understanding humanity, but never for the purpose in succeeding at life within the confinements of the typical 3d human reality.

Gameology is the "true" art form. Instead of making a movie, or drawing a picture, or writing a piece of music, we've chosen to take our immediate contacts within our 3d environment. We say and do things to them to manipulate them to best fit the criteria of the characters we're looking for to create epic storylines with raw, true to life emotions, and perfect scenes that express the best of what humanity has to offer.

The roles we play utilize the naturally given characteristics that our physical embodyment has granted to us. We take our basic person/personality and give him orders on what to think and feel, and he naturally responds to what his enivironment stimulates. We sit back and we watch the story unfold, and quickly plan for our next course of action. Then we tell the main character of our story what to think and feel next.

Gameology is for people that want something more out of life. For people that are tired of the same boring routine life. For people with emotional or mental health issues that wish to detach from the stresses and faiures of common living.

Gameology includes a mindset that can make one indestructable almost. When you become a gameologist you give up the fear of loss. You lose the fear of death. Any and all obstacles as a gameologist are trivial. Because if you lose or die, all in all, it's just a game.

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